What Happened?

What's the reason behind my long hiatus? Most of you must not care about it. It was a roller coaster ride. Some things that could never be forgotten - both good and bad.

I will be back to post some of it... when my mind is cleared from the clouds. Then you'll probably understand... or not at all.

Snobbed, Almost

Steam room. Fresh from my two-hour work-out, I thought I needed to relax my muscles. I really don't wear any undies whenever I get to the wet room. A towel wrapped on my waist is already enough to be decent.

Ironic. I love spending my rest in the steam room alone. Though I still would take almost thirty minutes inhaling the steam with some other people, I still prefer to enjoy it without anybody around. It's not that I'm doing something naughty. I just want to be alone. So when I enter the room alone, or when people start leaving, I start to sigh in relief.

This morning, as I was silently enjoying my time alone, a guy got inside. He's not interesting. Seems old even. Maybe he's in his late 30's. Then another one came, wearing a light-colored bikini. He's in his early 30's. He's not that good-looking compared to me. He's not even sexy. He's flabby. Not appealing enough. He turned his back. His butt not even impressive - the type who spends most of life sitting, so flat.

Then the first guy exited out. I still didn't care. This time, the second guy faced me. He keeps on looking at me to get my attention. I just glance at his face, look at him from head to toe and closed my eyes again. I heard him snapping his bikini. I just looked at the source of the noise.

Then another two old men came in. He got out. I stayed.

After a few minutes, he came back. Just in time that the two old men came out one at a time. This time, he's getting more persistent. He's facing me, snapping his bikini, and when I opened my eyes, he rubbed his crotch. His tool isn't even impressive. My heart started beating fast. And I'm getting a slight hard on. But I didn't make it obvious. I just let him do what he wants.

He wets his lips, looks at me, tempting me to come to him. I almost stood up but one man came in. I just smile to him and proceeded to the shower room as quickly as I could. I didn't even soap myself anymore. I saw him getting into the cubicle beside mine. He tried to catch my attention. I didn't buy it. I just went ahead and changed my clothes.

And I flew out.

Born Again

I am back. But I don't know what to write about. Hehe. For quite some time, I've been celibate since my encounter with that supervisor. Nothing really special so I won't ellaborate.

If somebody could be helpful, hook me up with someone. Haha.

Moans

Hmmmmm...
Mmmmmmmmm...
Ohhhhhhhhhhh...
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
Shit!
Oh Yes!

G4M

Tangina naman o. Wala na bang natitirang matitino, o guapo o hindi screaming faggot sa G4M? Nakakabwisit. Ginagawa na nilang gays4men ang site a. May abs nga pangit naman. May guwapo nga pangit naman pala sa personal.

I hope that G4M is going to screen their members. Haha. Now I'm discriminating.

Bisor

He's the supervisor of another team - typical guy girls would love to date - tall, fair-complexioned, intelligent, and good-looking. I must admit, mas pogi siya sa akin.

But as much as girls want to have him, he chooses to be single until now. He sounds and acts so manly. Not a trace of sexual confusion is seen in him. His deep voice makes girls fall onto their knees. And his enigmatically serious face makes you keep on guessing what's in his mind.

Just learned from his subordinate who happens to be my friend that he is a La Sallista. He prefers to go to the gym than play basketball. And he's good at swimming too. Tsk. Tsk.

How the hell did he learn my name? I'm no popular in this big company. I don't even visit my friend in their work area. Maybe I'm just paranoid. But come to think of it. He seldom flashes his very precious smile to everyone and and should I consider myself lucky to have been given that smile everytime we meet at the hallway? I don't know.

He's noted for being OC. I'm an OC too, a neat freak in everything I do. Oh, we got something in common. Hehehe.

One day, as I was brushing my teeth at the men's room, he came in. As expected, he smiled at me. I responded. Then he peed with his body slightly away from the urinal enough for me to see his wang. Then he saw me saw it. And smiled...

The Card

Lunes ng umaga. Sabay tayong sumakay sa MRT patungong South. Nakapula ka at ako'y nakasuot ng napakaluwag na berdeng shirt. Hmmm... Mestisuhin ka ring katulad ko. Napansin mo'ng tinitingnan kita pero di ka nagpahalata. Pero alam kong PLU ka rin kasi ang likot ng mga mata mo sa tuwing may mga lalaking sumasakay o bumababa sa sasakyan.

Bumaba ka sa Buendia samantalang ako ay sa Taft pa. Pakiramdam ko di mo ako type. No big deal. Hahaha.

Pagdating ng estasyon ng Taft at bumaba na ako sa tren, may isang lalaking humabol sa akin at may inabot na calling card. Nahulog ko raw. Wala naman akong calling card na dala. Napansin kong parang pamilyar sa akin ang pagmumukhang yun. Patuloy pa rin ako sa paglakad.

Nang binasa ko na ang nakalagay sa card, nakita ko'ng may sulat kamay dito: "Hi! This is the guy in red shirt. I bet you like me. Wanna hook up?" At may nakalagay na numero ng cellphone dito. Ako'y napailing. Akalain mo, mas mabilis ka pa pala sa akin.

But then again. Shall I call you?

At Long Last!

Finally, after 24 years of long suffering from my own hands, my dick is able to taste and feel somebody else's hand and mouth.

I've let the entire holy week pass with my celibacy untouched. I'm supposed to go to the spa this Saturday but my weary muscles demanded for some Swedish massage and si I was submissive enough to do it. Anyway, I'm not running out of money yet even though the end of the pay period is already fast approaching. My main intention is just to relax my tired muscles and have a massage.

But God gave me a bonus for being "good" in the entire holy week, except that I didn't stop from thinking naughty things.

I've gone to the wet room and saw 40-year-olds filling up everything - the dry and steamy sauna and cold and hot jacuzzi. I cared less so I just washed up, and had a steam bath. I don't have 20-20 vision and the foggy place added to my being vision impaired so I couldn't see most people's faces. What I could just see was a smile from somebody across me. I didn't smile back. I just closed my eyes and went to sleep.

After 30 minutes, I went out, washed up and soaked myself in the jacuzzi. I saw a familiar cock and a familiar face - it's the Korean guy minus his Pinoy buddy. Hmmm... Destiny perhaps? I don't think so. Maybe he's just a regular customer here. He winked at me. I just laughed.

He went upstairs ahead of me. I didn't follow him. I just took my time in the jacuzzi until I fell asleep again. Then after some 40 minutes to an hour, I washed up, and went upstairs to savour my well-deserved massage. I always choose a female to massage me. Not only do they make me feel I'm a man, they pamper me more than a man could. Their hands are also softer. May iba pang batang therapist na nagpapacute. Hehehe.

After more than an hour, I decided to stay inside the room and have some sleep. I'm obviously tired. And I also sleep a lot. Di bale nang hindi kumain, makatulog lang. It was when one of the supervisors woke me up. He apologized for disturbing me but they were running out of rooms. I didn't say a word. I just put back my robe and got out.

I was supposed to change clothes but when I passed by the lobby, I saw the buffet table and remembered that there's free buffet for all customers. Being a stingy person and that, I decided to make use of the money I've spent and take my free dinner.

I was busy chewing all those food I've chosen when somebody approached my table and said something. His words were barely understandable. It must be with his accent. So I looked at him and asked what he just said. I was surprised to see that it's the Korean guy.

"Excuse me?" I asked.

"Can I share this table with you? It seems that all the other tables are taken," He said. I just edited it because his English is so baroque.

"Sure. No problem," I said in a friendly tone although my face doesn't seem to coordinate with it.

So we took our supper, silently.

After about five minutes, he said, "Excuse me. Do you know how to speak in Tagalog?"

"Oo naman," sagot ko. 100% Pinoy po ako, pinanganak at lumaki sa Pilipinas pero mas nahihirapan akong magTagalog kaysa sa mag-English. I'm from Cebu so it would be understandable why I'm better with the second language than our national one. Add it with the fact that my mom usually converses with me in straight English. So yun. Hehehe.

"Bakit? Marunong ka ba?" I asked him back. I must have sounded sarcastic pero ganun talaga ako.

"Oo. Matagal na ako dito," he answered.

I've learned that he's been in the country for more than five years, a 25-year old guy who migrated to the Philippines with his family and owns a business here. I'm not usyusero so I didn't ask him what sort-of monkey business their family is running. Baka sabihan pa ako ng "Paki mo."

Hindi na namin namalayan ang oras. When I saw the wall clock, I've thought of going home. It's already past 1 am. I said I had to go. And he said he also had to. So we finished our iced tea and proceeded to the locker area. As we were heading to the exit, he asked where I'm going. I said it's in Fairview. Tamang-tama, he's also from there too. I don't have a car so he offered me a lift. Ako pa, tatanggi sa grasya. More than 200 bucks na yung matitipid ko dun. Without hesitation, I said yes.

As we were heading North, we were chatting about his life in Manila and the changes that he has to undergo. Then, there was silence. I'm not the type who talks about myself. He turned his head to look at me. I just rolled my eyes to look at him.

Then he suddenly stopped near COA. I asked if there's something wrong or if I need to push his car. He just smiled and held started to unzip my jeans. I told him to stop. For Christ's sake, I want to do things discreetly. He just held my cock firmly and smiled. Natigasan ako. But I want to have my sanity rule over my lust.

He drove too fast that we reached his place in less just five minutes. He lives away from his parents. He's just alone. The moment he opened the door and let me in, he torridly kissed me, letting his tongue stick inside my mouth. I gasped for air but he wouldn't let go of me. He kept on kissing me. I didn't have a choice but to reciprocate it.

He unbuttoned my shirt in a snap of a finger and took off his. My, he's a pro. Or he might just be too excited to taste me. And his body is literally hot. he might have kept that lust within while we were talking.

He started licking my ear, down to my neck. He sucks my nipples so great that I couldn't help but moan. As he was licking and kissing my abdomen, he unbuttoned my pants and quickly unzipped them. My cock was throbbing hard and its head is already peeping out of my briefs. He kissed it, licked it, while pulling my briefs and pants down.

Now I know why guys love be served with fellatio. It's heaven. I felt all my muscles contracting while he was giving me a head. I guess it's with the technique but he really sucked me great.

He completely disrobed himself and I saw his micro mini dick but it wasn't soft anymore. I tried to hold it and was about to suck it but I stopped. I just kissed its head and started licking it down to his balls, to his anus and he couldn't help but moan so loudly.

He handed me his lubricant and condom. He wanted me to fuck him. I said I don't know how to do it. He said it just happens naturally. And so I did. I let him lay down opening his legs wide so that I could access his butt. I inserted my tool inside his. First, the head, then gently, everything of it. He kept himself from shouting but I saw his face getting red. It must have been painful but he ordered me to continue and so I did. As I'm pushing and pulling, he kissed me passionately. He said he loved it. And he said that I'm great. I guess he was just pulling my leg just so I wouldn't stop.

Mabilis akong nilabasan pero siya hindi pa. He still ordered me to continue kahit luambot na yung sa kin. He started to kiss me again and lick and suck my nipples. My cock started to harden again and he wanted me to continue fucking while he is masturbating.

Soon, he ejaculated. And he told me to remove my dick from his anus. I was just a good follower. He then pushed me until I laid flat on the floor, positioned my legs to have him a full access of my still hard dick. Then he removed my condom and started sucking my thing again. He moved his warm tongue up and down my cock and down to my balls and played with it. I kept on moaning. Then he moved way farther to my anus and started rimming it. Fuck! I don't know how to decribe it but the fact that a third party is probing my anus with his tongue is something weird but awesome. I loved it. He kept on doing it until I felt that I almost have my load excreted. He sensed it and started sucking it hard again until I reached my second orgasm.

I just couldn't imagine how he managed to swallow that thick salty liquid coming from my tool. It even felt yucky when I tasted his precum. But man, I'm telling you, he doesn't suck in sucking.

I spent the entire morning at his place. Morning came and I had to go. He asked for another round but I turned him down. Maybe then I could see him again and do it again... maybe not. We'll see.

After taking a quick shower, he took me to my place and we parted ways.

How was my first time? It was more than amazing.

Libog

Fuck! I'm so horny tonight. In the midst of this very silent night, I want to meet a guy who could break my virginity. I won't care if he's a top or a bottom. I could do whatever role as long as I could release this heat I have inside. he just have to be good looking.

Anybody help!

I'm Hot

If there would be a competition for the most overpowering self esteem, I wouldn't join at all. I've grown up thinking that I'm just an average guy. But last night, I felt that all the cosmos were aligning to send me one message - that I'm one heck of a handsome and well-endowed person.

Every other week, I go to this spa to have a massage. A friend recommended me this place since the price is so reasonable for a full body massage and hours at the steam room, sauna and jacuzzi. I originally went there to pamper myself and nothing else. I even want to kill those queer eyes staring at me and I see to it that they can't see my prick at all.

Last night, I felt different. I hope that I'm not being concieted or what but I just felt that most of the young and not-so-young guys there were looking at me. I always enjoy sleeping inside the steam room not minding anybody at all. But last night, everybody seems to be following me from the steam room to the dry sauna, to the shower and even to the jacuzzi.

There's even this Korean guy (who I find hansome and has a well-chiselled body) who was obviously following me all through out. When I went to the jacuzzi, I caught him staring at my thing with open mouth. I'm not exaggerating. Then he saw me staring at him. Like a kid, he tried to be pretending he's innocent by saying "What?!" I wasn't mad but my sharp eyes told him so. I still catch him glancing at me while talking with his friend. I guess it is his envy on my penis that couldn't stop him from looking at my dick. His is small. Think of Microsoft. Hehehe. I just thought that mine is average but my ROTC tactical officer once told me that I am well-endowed. I don't know.

I haven't seen him at the hallway before and after my massage. I went back to the wet room before going home but to no avail.

Watch Out!

We got onto the train at the same time. I stood near the door and you stood next to me. You're too jerky. Your hands can't be put to rest. I've observed that you intentionally do it to touch my arm. I pulled my hand away for you not to reach it but you still make an effort to do it. Then you keep on looking at me to get my attention and when you got successful, you tease me by holding your crotch. I'm not invited... because YOU LOOK TOO JOLOGS!

Look, I'm not that desperate to lose my virginity. Though I'm looking for a guy to have sex with, it doesn't mean that I'm too desperate that I could fuck and be fucked by anybody who has a penis. I also have to live with my standards. I may not be handsome but I am not an ugly person either. I don't have a nice physique but I'm not flabby. I'm looking for a neat-looking one, regardless if he's fair or dark-complexioned as long as he doesn't look jologs. I don't go for artificially fair-complexioned ones. Nose and eyes are things that would get myself attracted to while a great body makes my mouth water.

I know it's difficult to find one who possesses these and at the same time who would like to fuck and be fucked by me.

Why

Why's and becauses have to go together. As to why I'm blogging this? I don't have a friend who, I think, could understand me. I think I'm underestimating them. I think they'll understand but I'm just ashamed to tell them. All because I know that this is wrong.

Coming from a conservative and strictly Catholic family makes me feel that I'm the evilest devil one could meet. I've been an acolyte when I was a kid, and almost entered the seminary. And here I am, with a weak flesh.

I could remember that I used to sneak my mom's money when I was a kid. I could ask it from her but I know "Masama ang bawal." I also tried smoking alone, testing how dried scallions as a cigarette would taste, or just rolled newspaper, coupon bond or stationery. I keep on experimenting things. And when I am done with it, I just put it to a full stop.

I just hope that this madness will end... soon before I'll be tied to eternity with the woman I love. We've never had sex, nor kissed. We chose to be physically pure prior to the wedding.

First

I had been reading several semi-sexual encounters done in public transport such as the train. It excites me but I don't want to dodge with those commuters. I don't like crowded places but this afternoon, I decided to give myself a try.

I was at the Ayala MRT station when I thought of something. I was already sleepy and being conveyed through the train is the fastest way to get into my destination. The car I was ogenerally crowded but it still had some space for air, unlike during rush hours.

Then, there's this fair-complexioned, neat-looking guy about a meter away infront of me who kept on staring at me. When he got my attention, he moved his eyeballs elsewhere that I thought it was a sign that he's a PLU. I smiled.

When it reached the Buendia station, I was pushed by some passengers and got closer to him. My right elbow touched his left one and after a few seconds, I felt some gentle rub from him. Unlike the previous experiences I've had, I never felt electrocuted nor awkward that time. Instead, I felt aroused. I responded to his touch by rubbing his elbow back, showing that I liked it.

Later on, I felt a hand lingering on my crotch. God, words couldn't describe how I felt. I was a lot more sleepy but the feeling was so great. My right knee was trembling because I've never experienced this before. Never. He kept on touching it until the Shaw station. A lot of people emptied the train and I saw him signalling me to move. I didn't get it. I just moved to his back and rubbed his ass. Thanks to the shaky train that the way I push my crotch on his ass won't wasn't obvious. I also tried playing my fingers on his left thigh adding with my deep breathing with my nose exhaling warm air to the back of his ear and his nape. I kept on doing it until he stepped out at Cubao.

I was supposed to stop at Quezon Avenue but I decided to follow him. Unfortunately, I couldn't see him anywhere. My bad.

This is it. The start of the other side of me.